Day 44

It's raining and it's cold. And I must go out, but I don't want to... I prefer to stay inside and cuddle, but that can't really happen, right...
Last night Dante slept with me in the bed, usually he's making a lot of noise when I try to sleep, so he's  not entering the bedroom, but tonight he slept for a while, it was so nice.
And I tried to meditate, frankly, I don't remember much, but it was relaxing, and yeah, my mind is fully obsessed with MLL, thinking about him even in meditations... I remember that he was mentioned, and something about my graduation (that it will be fine), and oh yeah, the weird part (as if it wasn't weird enough) this female being called a Goddess came, female structure, warm white - yellowish light, she really liked me, Never seen such a creature before. But it was nice, don't remember what we talked about, but it felt safe...
So, yesterday D. said that he was seeing me on a square with strange lights, so it was the square of Frankfurt, now we must wait and see if I will truly go to Frankfurt someday in the future. I like premonitions. Always eager to find are they true. So, we will wait and see...
I must get ready to go out in some time, will wait to be around 14h at least, don't want to go rushing and find no one, cause it's lunch time...
I'm nervous for some reason, and I feel stupid about it. Really, why am I nervous now? ~.~