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Well, my life is going crazy... AGAIN...
Pff...
And my friend D. now thinks that I'm a "black hole" and an "empty person", basically a whore... And that I am a parasite... Oh well... Maybe he is right, maybe he isn't, but one thing is for sure, no one has the right to judge the others, you aren't living my life, so... As I said to him too, the door is right there... Don't want to keep someone around me who is thinking so low of me, right... People are different, make different choices in life. And I don't want to ruin any relationships at all. I'm not sure why is this happening, but I do enjoy it mostly... So...Don't know... Maybe I am a bad person after all... We will see, time will tell...
Bf's mom, bf's brother and his child were here for a few days, it was most unpleasant for me, needed to go to bed early, can't find a damn thing in my kitchen...
And for the one who is thinking what's happening... I have a new affair... Yeah, affair, this time no love involved, or so I hope, don't want drama again, I'm not even sure why am I in this mess again and how did it happen, it's a damn blur... And yes, I am probably the most horrible person you'll ever know... But I don't feel bad, just awkward... Don't know what will follow, don't know if I want anything to follow at all...
So, tried to make pizza with a tile... It turned out lovely...

Now I must find a job, get independent, and things will work out somehow ^^ I'm not really worried about it, somehow things will work out, maybe will go for bad, or for good, it doesn't really matter as long as I am happy with myself... And I am.